I’ve been getting a lot of emails from people who are checking in and don’t realize I have my second surgery scheduled for Wednesday. So in case you didn’t know, now you know. This would be to correct the margins.
However, I have been contemplating a mastectomy and have an appointment with the surgeon tomorrow to discuss. Why this change of heart? Because the pathology report showing 6.5 cm of DCIS scared me. Because no scans picked up the extent of the disease; on what can I rely in the future? Because radiation, which poses health risks and is cancer causing in itself, is strongly advised for a lumpectomy but is not necessary for a mastectomy. And because so much tissue has already been removed from my breast. With (or without) another 1 cm to be removed on Wednesday I’m expecting a not-so-becoming cosmetic outcome. I’m told I’ll know the worst of it in two months, though there will be some slight improvement as the tissue continues to settle up to about six months out.
I’m betwixt and between. The thought of a mastectomy is so dreadful to me that it makes me cry. I’m so not ready for that. People, this is not easy. Not easy at all.
At this point, I believe I’ll be going ahead with the re-excision for margins on Wednesday. Then I will consult with a few oncologists to whom I’ve been recommended, meet the radiologist to learn about radiation treatments, and finally reconvene with my holistic physician and embark on his protocol of intensive natural therapies.
I should also mention that if the surgeon doesn’t get proper margins on Wednesday, she’s already said she won’t try a third time. She’ll probably recommend a mastectomy.